Wednesday, December 31, 2008

2008 in a nutshell

Well, since its the year end, looking back, Year 2008 can be considered a bad year for me. There are sweet moment, but overall, it could be much much better.

Lets see... heartache and burnout in life - check, failing health - check, failed business - check, overbusting debt - check, zero achievement - check

So for the

Result... 0 /5 YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!

With the new year coming, I take this opportunity to wish Happy New Year. I would like to apologized for any wrong doing.

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I wish all your wishes come true, unless the wish contradict mine... Then I WIN!!! Muahahahahahahahahah ahahahahahah.. muahahahahaha!!!


Monday, December 29, 2008

New Stuff

Been a big spender lately, bought me a cheap sling bag as the old one broken, a cheap new sandal for coming new year as old Fila is too rugged, 8g Imation Atom as old Sandisk 2g hardly enough, 8g Sandisk SDHC, and a camera bag.


Oh yeah, I've finally bought the 1000d. Now I am (撮影技師) カメラマン, albeit lou yar one la.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Ip Man Kick Ass!

I need some pickup in life, where else can you get this? Kick Ass movie of course!!!


Ip Man Rocks!!!! Hiyah!! Take this! Fuah!! Take that!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Trusting Faith?

I repeat... I do not have anything with or against religion... I am just who I am. A Little Misfit.

Not feeling good today, both heart and body, and still being con by my aunt to attend a church dinner. Damn!

Misfit: later sakit hati... go hear jesus i convert how?!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Life Like That

My climb / journey / descend though life has always been like that............


so near yet so far.




Monday, December 22, 2008

I was suppose to be on holiday.... but no... early morning sms'es, calls, really break my rest. Just when I was preparing for my morning breakfast and teh tarik... Office call for some inspection. Darn!!! And I took today leave just for rest since working non stop for a whole week including Sunday. Life really offers no solace.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Huh?!

Did something just happen? Cause I swore 1 of my earlier post about... eeer.. nvm...

ONE OF MY POST WAS DELETED!!! WHAT HAPPEN?!

Steping in and out of reality

Life is that we can never get what was desired, you drift between reality and imagination, thinking of how good it would be.

False hope, hot and cold feelings, seems the world is pulling your leg...... these things just gored you down, before you knew it, you are struggling.... struggling to uphold the imaginary thought that might make you happy.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Older again

Getting Older again. Having lesser hair. Get up from the bed, overslept at the sofa -_-"


but will the heart miss what you want less? Never

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Keeping in touch?

Do you ever experience there is someone you promised to always keep in touch, but have not? Perhaps due to certain reason?

And you reliased that you miss them, and wanting to chat up, for whatsoever reason, but you just can't find the courage to just dial the number.

Do they even know how you felt? Or you're just another annoying blip in their life... If it was the case, they why nobody keep in touch with you?......

Yeah, I think it's just me. I am a blip

Monday, December 15, 2008

Just a Small Shopping Trip

WAS EXtra tired when I stop over to a local shopping center to do some small small shopping.... I looked rugged, like an outback guy. I look like shit but macho at the same time.

After finish, went back to my car, only then I noticed my zipper is open.

Friday, December 12, 2008

My Quote

Something that I forgot whether I posted before here, need someone to remind me. Can't believe it's been some time already.


Loving you is a pleasure that I do. Missing you is the burden that I choose. Missing your voice means that I am a cheapskate who doesn't want to pay the phone bill. – aLittleMisfit

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Lucky or Unlucky

Lucky lucky by - Mylina -.

Was having lunch with my parents, and a lottery guy comes over to sell his ticket. My mom just said, "you have the luck, buy!"

And I was, "Errr..." OK. I take 5, and noticed my wallet is not there, fell one the hardware shop beside when I was buying so nails earlier.

So, for lottery, I get the prize of not losing my wallet. Funny, life as it is.

Monday, December 01, 2008

Hanging on Air

I was painting wall on a staircase, suddenly I misbalanced and the staircase fell. I jumped and luckily grab a railing and was hangging 8 feet from the ground.

The 10 second felt like eternity.


And then I think, "Eh! Why I did not see my life flash before me?"

Then I climb down. Just some minor bruise.


Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Considering Needs

Canon EOS 1000D

I want buy this, should I buy it? Amit my every growing debts?

See this post must answer.. no answer will be cursed!!!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Monday, November 24, 2008

Wedding of the Flies

Another of my longtime pal Samuraiman got married on the weekend. FYI, the bride is from Singapore  so most of the "Sisters" are friends of Samuraiman and me.

Revenge of the "Sisters"

The calculating "Sisters"

It seems there was a "housefly season" courtesy of the nearby latex plant. So the flies were SO VAST in numbers, they could cover the daylight if all of them flew up the skies. They are even *gaphs* thicker than the "sisters" ICI.

Well, during the stopover at the Samuraiman's home, I introduces the Singaporean "sisters" of our latest hometown specialties - HOUSEFLY.

And no joke, the wedding lunch is full flies, I don't know who is more irritated. Us for having to keep swaying one arm while using the next one eating, or the flies who have to keep finding an opening for food.


The uninvited guest


And that still happen when we are waving our hand madly. Happy wedding day Samuraiman!!! We are happy for you despite the flies.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Corny Lines

Some of the corny likes I've seen lately... I wonder if I'll ever have the chance to test them :-D

Excuse me, do u have a Band-Aid? I skinned my knee when I fell for you
Last night I hugged my pillow and dreamt of you... I wish that someday I'd dream about my pillow and I'd be hugging you.

Love is in the air... shit if only I had a plane right now ...

I wanted to send u something nice that would make u smile but the postman told me to get out of the mailbox!

I'm a bit shy...I'd like to have sex with you, you do not have to say yes, just smile to me!

Mobile sex: push 1 for oral, 2 for anal, 3 for normal, 4 for a trio, 5 for SM and for everything ... dial my number!

Do you like maths, if so add a bed, subtract ur clothes, divide your legs and we can multiply!


Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Another Supply

Another Supply coming in. I hope this may help me feel better.


Monday, November 17, 2008

Slipper Hunter

At the site office where I was working does not allow us to wear shoes inside, to help keeping the place clean. So most of us wear slippers inside. Well, to keep the office cleans was always a problem as we ALWAYS wear our slippers outside. Thus bringing the dust in with our slippers. We are so understanding peoples LOL!

Anyway, the problem for me is, someone else who does not buy their own slippers ALWAYS use mine. So, everytime I have to move around the consultant office asking,

"Anyone saw my slippers?" or "Who the fuck use my slipper again?!"

It is so sad that an RE have to hunt around his own slipper T_T

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Ice Cream?!

Text message between me and Girlboy yesterday

girlBoy: Yesterday got makan ice cream?
me: What ice cream?

girlBoy: Play ski la
me: Ha? What?

girlBoy: Massage la

FYI, ~when I was a little boy~... ~I tell the others~ ... what will I be.... I mean, sorry, got carried away, ice creams means blowjob... and I WILL NOT MAKAN ICE CREAM!!!!!!!!!!@@!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Friday, November 07, 2008

Potty Call Story

It was another normal clear sky morning. I was just sitting down in my site office after a breakfast session i.e. snaking with some fellow consultant ranting about the work on site. With the current slow work at site, I've decided to go back my head office and snake, I mean finished up some reports. That's when the initial feeling to shat came.

I thought to myself. OK OK I'll go back home, ease myself, then head back to office.
My junior engineer: I don't understand why can't you just use the site office toilet.
Me: Err.. I'm fussy where to put my ass today, especially when it will get burned tomorrow.

So, like a good driver, I drove home. Abiding the law of the road. And then was the second wave of tummy attack. GRRrooowwwlllll..... Oh-uh.. not good. And I drove faster. The drive was normally 15 minutes, but felt like eternity. I started overtaking all those site-seeing turtles, but at the same time not doing any sudden movement. I need to stay still, any sudden movement may trigger the bomb in my tummy.

The feelings is near unbearable, it felt like I was going to explode. I pumped up the stereo, hoping to divert some attention away. The body seems to know my vicinity away from home, cause it growl like hell just when I was turning in the housing corner.

Upon reaching my house, I grimaced and reach for my house key. It was holding the shit back like stopping a rampaging bulls in Spain. Then,

I FORGOT TO BRING OUT THE HOUSE KEY!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't want to shit in my pants.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Sadness Cometh

The day before yesterday was among the days when I really felt sad. No certain reason whatsoever, I just standing around, and certain excessively sadness just struck me.


Perhaps I am ungrateful, perhaps I am greedy. But I AM SAD!!!! :(

Monday, November 03, 2008

Post missing 20-million

Come to think of it, its a really sort of a sign. I did talk to myself... If not strike the mega jackpot, at least win some to ease on the debts... and WAALAAA!!!!

:sob: :sob: :sob: almost made me a believer again.
but for 20mil... I can believe in anything..... :sob: :sob: :sob:

Oh btw, the next person who says "what's not yours is not yours"
curse u go eeer... diablo how many level... 50?
curse u 51 level of hell..... for 18 generation!

OK, me hate b'days. Really doesn't fell like "my" day. But I really appreciate Jewel sing b'day song for me on the phone, short version one.... YAY~! And of course, all other wishes. Surprisingly, my mom send me b'day message the earliest in the morning. Thanks ma! and I thought she hates me the most, and would rather hug her two dogs than me.

I am almost a 20 millionaire


Oh.. the difference between 20mil and 3k.. :sob: :sob: :sob:

Today gonna be a sucky birthday for me I guess. :sob: :sob: :sob: My debt pressure is rising :sob: :sob:

So I'm gonna take this money and spent it like no tomorrow :sob: :sob: :sob:

Saturday, November 01, 2008

My Lunch


SOOO FULL THAT I AM; This is my lunch the next day.

Friday, October 31, 2008

My Last Dinner?

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Halfway there.... how to diet.... cursed those who didnt come!

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finish.... then again

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order this cheezcake to annoy neuro

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then finally desert!


6 people... 1 vegetarian.. 1 didnt eat much... 2 ffk (will be cursed!)
we ate like the last supper.

It was me having the last meal before the dreaded full day meeting the next day.

ps: thanks to oc for the discount coupon

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

New Gadget


Me new gadget..................... :)

I know, I know... I'm cheap

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Flower Mouth


Damnit! This is the 2nd time in my life that I was called flower mouth. From the same person. This person better be important!

Epic Fail


As usual, after all anticipation..... failure comes... naturally.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Anticipation, Jitters, and Frozen

Have you got the feeling, what you have been looking forward to something or someone?


Well, funny to say, I have jitters. It was like a kid awaiting christmas present.. oh wait.. I never celebrate christmas, but you get the point. I can't explain.

There was so many stuff, but when the moment came, you just froze, nervous and all, the one never really understand what you are thinking. Or the moment might not come at all.

What should you do? what should you say? The words in your mind just don't come out right.

Example
Mind: "I miss you!"
Body: (throw sand)
Mouth: "Muahahahahahahaah!"

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Me old old 2

My shoulder/neck/head/back is really sore lately. I was so far from peak. I think my grandfather is in better shape than I am now. Oh... my grandfather is dead btw, bless his soul.

I do wish I can meet up with my buddy. If my buddy got time for me la.... I will promise we go massage. Eh... I thought my buddy promised me massage before. Liar :(

Monday, October 20, 2008

Misfit Went Seminar

I went for a technical seminar, ends up learning more about new vocabulary rather than technical stuff.

 

Jiro = Zero

Jonk = Joint

Korek = Correct

Eleman = Element

Colung = Column

Cheer = Shear

Momeng = Moment

Vahlue = Value

Ajack = Exact

Yeation = Reaction

Kaikuration = Calculation

Yer = Here

Loak = Load

Terng Ong = Turn on

 

Jis one arrr, jis colung yer, if you set the loak to jiro arrr, the momeng kaikuration at jis yeation should be jis vahlue arrr. The cheer aarrr vahlue at yer, and jis jonk is korek, really ajack one arrr.

Oh, terng ong the eleman at ajack yer. Tea break is on tereee cheerty.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Me Old Old Old Old

I forgot to charge my handphone, so it was running very low when I called Baozzz for dinner. I asked him to call Stevanisteroy for confirmation, and tell me what is the final dinner location. The phone batery died as soon as I hung up =_= Baozzz phone number is in it.

So, what do I do? SPAM discussion board for help. No reply.
MSN Steve. Nabeh, no reply.
MSN AhMeng help. OK OK... he help sms Baozzz.
Baozzz no reply =_=
Then my Ladyboss went home, and lock the office without realized there are few staff still upstairs.
Meng msn, Baozzz tried to call him.... Meng is in New Zealand... Baozzz will curse the phone bill.
Me and Meng LOL~~~
Ladyboss remember, turn back and save us from temp confinement.
I suddenly realise,
Why Didn't I just ask Meng Baozzz number and I call using office phone?!!?!!

Meng LOL~~~
Call Baozzz, he already reached home and lazy to come out again.
I go eat alone.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

God say no, what do I do?

I Asked God, And He Said No


I asked God to take away my pride and God said, "No."
He said it was not for Him to take it away, but for me to give it up.

I asked God to grant me patience and God said, "No."
He said that patience is a by-product of tribulation.
It isn't granted; it's earned.

I asked God to give me happiness and God said, "No."
He said that He gives blessings; happiness is up to me.

I asked God to spare me pain and God said, "No."
He said, "Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares
and brings you closer to me."

I asked God to make my spirit grow and God said, "No."
He said that I must grow on my own,
but He will prune me to make me fruitful.

Then I do barrel roll on the floor, whine like a spoiled brat!
"I want! I want!"
God still said, "No."

I asked God to help me love others as much as He loves me and God said,
"Ah...Finally you understand..."


I reply
"Eh... but I don't believe you at all!~"

I know, I know.... If there's hell... I'm already in one.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Somemore random conversasion with very old friend

daisy: have u eat nasi kelabu before?
me: i think so gua
daisy: yup
mei cant remember the things i put in my mouth

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Time to let go

I let ezineer.com go...................

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Friday, October 03, 2008

Wish Things

I wish for world peace....


ahahahahahahahahahahhahahaahhahahahahahahahahaaa......

I mean, I've been finding this, cause I have to be realistic, and cheap. I could never capture Godzilla in any Godzilla hunt cause I do not have the time, money and in the state I am in, I would not even caught any Barney, let alone the great things. Yeah, I am in a bad state in life. I do wish for a different thing, but Godzilla is still easier and less messy.

The pasar malam cheap cheap one also can. No need expensive stuff.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Questionaire

Q What's good about depression?
A You always have your funeral planned in advance,

Q What's good about being depressed?
A Nothing. But it's no worse than anything else since life sucks anyhow. 

Q. Why did the depressed person cross the busy road?
A. To get to "the other side". 

Q. What's worse than being dead?
A. Being alive and depressed. 

Q. What's good about being dead?
A. You'll finally achieve your desired weight loss and get the stick thin figure you always wanted. 


Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Time to post

Didn't find the time to post lately, as work is now taken over as my 2nd wife :(

Been spending any free time on these

http://freshome.com/
http://padstyle.com/
http://cubox.info/

and gladly yeah.. CHUCK!

Saturday, August 30, 2008

If Only..

If only I knew how you felt
If only you knew how I felt
If only I am braver
If only I am a risk taker
If only I have more time
If only I am richer
If only I am poorer
If only I do more
If only I am smarter
If only I have more support
If only I get more encouragement
If only I am more heartless
If only I am more caring
If only I could control
If only I can make the pain goes away
If only you knew how much I wanted...

If only....

Thursday, July 31, 2008

SMS

Boss ask me 2 remind u 2 be punctual when u punch in at bbap site. Saw yr punch in time late as usual. U should know by now dato sure will complain boss very soon. 2 avoid it pls be punctual.


Thursday, July 17, 2008

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

World Weariness

Did you ever notice that on certain days, the will to procrastinate even sleep. Soon, 12am changed to 1, 1 to 2… and still you wouldn't go to sleep. And when you finally sleep, you don’t want to get up. You get up, you don’t want to go work, when u work, u didn't have enough time to come home, and after your home, you tired, and still do not want to go to sleep.


The incoherent mind, the stress, the pressure, the tiredness, the guilt, the sadness. And all of the sudden, world weariness makes you lose the will to live.


I don’t cry, but stop crying your heart out… and die……. Just die……

Monday, July 14, 2008

My Best Score Yet #3


I think this will be the final one. I doubt it can be bettered by me.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

A Tiny break from Misery

I am glad I didn’t post what I intended earlier yesterday. Well, it’s in line with the recent sad, bitter, misery post. So today I am gonna post something happy. For me la of course!

The lonely project I am involved~


I wanted to maxed out the car stereo and drown my shouting in on my way back from a dreadful meeting. Well, one thing lead to another, I didn’t get that chance.

Upon reaching office, Girlboy reminded me of a foot massage promotion. It was a new joint, located on a jetty. RM25 for an hour, I jumped to the chance.

The view from jetty, also peaceful and lonely.

The massage palour is quite a nice place. A bit crowded thought, there are many cheapskate like me as it was the final day promotion. But the main attraction is… the massage girls are young and pretty. HOUYEAHHH!!!!



But me and Girlboy got the least of attractive ones. Misfit luck strike again, but I do enjoy chatting with them. I did opt for “add-on” something about better medication on the water. All I see is, blue colouring powder.


We are really chatty. Well, better us noisy than listening to a fat patron trying to hit on his pretty massage lady. It felt really “not comfortable” listening a mid-40 fat and bald guy trying to hit on a young pretty girl. I am so jealous.


The massage is not really something to shout about, after paying and thanking our massage lady. We went for a nearby Vietnamese restaurant, it really look classy, and I was surprised at the relatively affordable pricing. we enjoyed our dinner, and I even took the tab.




Never mind la... feel good ma.

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Saturday, July 05, 2008

Risk Taker

If there is something that you want, but will risk everything, will you do it?

I am struggling with myself with what I want and what I should.

I am not a risk taker. And I despise myself for it.

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Random Thought

I don't know if it is referring to me......

but i felt the same......

yet my life is so messed up......

it will not be fair

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

So Tired


I am so tired -_-

Monday, June 30, 2008

Saturday, June 28, 2008

aLittleMisfit Song

Found this while online....

A song about me! LOL!!!
but quite true T_T

LITTLE MISS FIT






Artist: Donna Summer

There's a good there's a bad
some are gay, some are sad
there's a right, there's a wrong
those who fit don't belong

Well I'm the bad
and I've got to admit
that I'm sad
I'm a little misfit
I'm in the wrong
and that's the truth of it
I don't belong
I'm a little misfit

There's the sun there's the rain
those in love those in pain
some succeed while others fail
some will ease someone tells

Well I'm in the rain
and I've got to admit
that I gonna pay
I'm a little misfit

Though I've failed
that's the truth of it
see me tell
I'm a little misfit

Life's so hard when you're far from everything
life's so cold when you know you have no friends

Well I've lost
and I've got to admit
that I've paid the cost
I'm a little misfit

I still grow
and that's the truth of it
I'll always fall
I'm a little misfit

Well I'm bad
and I've got to admit
that I'm sad
I'm a little misfit

Well I'm bad
and that's the truth of it
that makes me sad
I'm a little misfit

Well I'm lost
and I've got to admit
that I've paid the cost
I'm a little misfit

I'm so poor

Friday, June 27, 2008

The evil Colleague

Lately my staffs/colleagues inefficiencies kept causing me on the receiving end of bombardment. Life is depressing enough without all these already.

Today I blew them off... I lectured them... even some due to my own mistakes. But NEH!!! I couldn't care less. Even if they're tired and depressed too.

I felt good after scolding people.... IT FELT SOOOOOO GOOODDDD!!!!

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Pick Me Up when I am down

Almost every time when I was unhappy, down, stressed. I used my own Pick Me Up method.

My trusty method is take a deep deep breathe, hold a while, and let out a big big.


HHHAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!


repeat if I have to, and quickly do my stuff when I felt a bit better.

but lately, this method is getting less and less affective.




* Disclaimer
Do not use this method when you have garlic breath and there was someone in front of you

Another Friend Bites the dust

(06:06:29 PM) aLittleIdiot: i would want to change my life... go for broke.. totally different
(06:07:02 PM) Daisy: totally different from now?
(06:07:31 PM) Daisy: or change ur life to wat u want ur life to be?
(06:07:55 PM) aLittleIdiot: what i have the chance to be
(06:08:28 PM) Daisy: i mean u want change ur life into ur desire life
(06:08:52 PM) Daisy: the life tat u want
(06:10:00 PM) aLittleIdiot: yeah.. but there will never be a guarantee that the life WILL be the one u wants
(06:15:29 PM) Daisy: of cause lah....give and take...but at least is toward tat direction...not Backward
(06:15:40 PM) aLittleIdiot: i want become gigolo
(06:15:42 PM) aLittleIdiot: muahahahaha
(06:16:08 PM) Daisy: alamak....only now i know tis is ur direction
(06:16:29 PM) Daisy: then u have to be a happy gigolo
(06:16:30 PM) aLittleIdiot: can la can la
(06:16:50 PM) aLittleIdiot: if u got "need", u know who to call ya... i gif discount


I'm so gonna lose friends here

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

New Blog Coming!

That'll be a whole new thing................... keep posted! :)

Monday, June 23, 2008

Letter from Misfit

Dear whinning aLittleMisfit,


Stop whining like a pussy, I am getting sick and tired of your pathetic self. Wanted or not, you are required to pick yourself up again. Failing is not an option.


As you know, your wife, kids, dogs, house, car, two turtle, and a nest of ants are counting on you. So kick yourself in the teeth. And live on, you sucking idiot shithole useless selfish spoilt pussying brat!


Yours sincerely,

aLittleMisfit


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Dear aLittleMisfit,


Hello, it’s me again. Thanks for your kick of reality. It has been a tiring weekend, with work and my darn PC problems taken up most of my time. But not to complain, Saturday night, I wanted to follow OC to have some happy hour in the tourist filled Jonker Street. OC stated that he will bring some chicks for drinks… WOOHOOOO!!!


Well, I came out early as to look at my staffs. Turns out, they went back home early which resulted me being lectured my client. Hehe, it is okay, shits happen. I just have to kill my staff later.


Not letting anything to dampen me, and I was damn early, I randomly called you for a chat. Damn you for not refusing to pick up my call. So, since I was free, I resorted to something I was not proud of. I contributed to pollution by driving around. Then, I picked up OC and got the bombshell.


THERE WILL NOT BE ANY CHICKS FOR HAPPY HOUR!



Frog will be joining us for a drink, though he can’t drink due to some stupidity of his. Others, well others will not make it as usual. Too bad that Frog do not have boobs. Err.. thinking back, luckily he does not have boobs, that would be one AWKWARD looking chick.


Then a government officer called to follow up a site accident earlier. So there was I, talking via my Bluetooth headset seems making me look like a lunatic to tourist as I was constantly walking, liaising with contractors… in the middle of tourist shopping area. It is just too bad that I didn’t have the chance to make fun of tourist, like waving a fake knife around, I’ll sure be enjoying me. Cause the tourist fully occupied the drinking area, leaving us to have cendol instead. It was the exact same shop I have gone once with a buddy, and it tasted just average.




Some drinking session I had huh? It’s actually to be my… eer.. lifetime forth drinking session. Hehe, perhaps next time, if you drop by again, we can have a drink, just you and me, mano vs. mano. We have so much in life to catch up again. Looking forward to be the true you again.


Yours Sincerely,

Ex-Whinning aLittleMisfit


Friday, June 20, 2008

Morally Decision?

Sometimes, decision of morally would be thrown to you. It seems to normal thing to do, just how low can I swoop? It may be nothing, but what about next time, or another next time? We do we draw the line? I may not be a man of good moral, but there are things that I would reluctant to do.

Deducting my options, my choices, it seems both are unfavorable to me. I have been dealt with Law 31, Control the Options: Get others to play with the card you deal.

On the verge of me making a choice, my phone dropped on the floor. I picked it up again, only this time, I didn't make the call. I don't know what to do.

I have no faith, I have no spiritual guidance, I near soulless. And in the state that I am, I can't really analyze well.

I have nobody to talk to, please help.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

My Best Score Yet #2


While watching In Bruges, got bored and randomly played. Even better than when I truly tried.
Guess life would be better when you are not out looking.

Massage Visit

My body have been failing me recently, and my emotional state does not help much either. So, with a bit persuasion, I joined my colleagues Girlboy and Singer for a massage.


Girlboy is really an embarrassment… especially his talking with the manager.. Imagine a near 30 year old virgin shocked faced when being told that the Jacuzzi are shared by both gender. And we are lucky or to my unluckiness that there are no female there. But I think the manager is bluffing.

So… bath, dive into the Jacuzzi, go steam bath, go sonar room, shower again. Then up to massage we go.

I opt for an oil massage, I choose a china girl cause I wanted to be able to communicate with them this time. Last time i have chosen a thai massage, hence a thai lady who couldn’t differentiate my face expressing of pain and enjoyment.


This massage lady is ok, good professional massage, it really kept me from thinking about my lives, what is happening around me, and work. But she does kept pestering me for more services such as longer massage time, ear waxing.. etc etc….


Siao Hong: Oooo, mister, you have a bad neck. See? (Pulling my neck muscle) Non elastic.

Me: *Cough cough.* Oooo… ic ic.


No, I did not do any hanky panky action.


And I found that (from her) that I have rheumatism, bad muscle, gassy, and yeah… very hairy knee.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

My Future Funeral

Rest in peace.

Ever think what will happen if one day you unexpectedly conk off? What preparation have you done? If I die, I want this picture. It's an old picture, a picture that I can still mildly accept.

It's another moment of weakness for me again. Perhaps this is the closes I'd ever post my true self.. but of course, I looks much ugly and fat now.

But who will write an eulogy for me? :(



Mah Neu Shoes

It is always very frustrating for me to buy shoes, either it is not the type I wanted, too expensive, or my sizes sold out.


Few weeks ago, during sales period, I saw a hush puppies that is suitable for me... with 30% discount. It was still higher than my normal budget, so I just keep in mind. After scouting around for a few more day, I found out that other shoes than are suitable for me are just slightly cheaper. So hush puppies it is.


Unfortunately, that store offer has ended.

So, here I am, back to square one. After much arguing, scouting, I decided to go with my second choice, a lightweight crocodile. Mind you, I will never wear those "high heel" men shoes. It just doesn't suit me.

Unfortunately again, I have to settle for dark brown as black have been sold out. Dark Brown it is.

It is so comfortable in these.


and it is extra light weight too



Two weeks after, I went to another shopping complex, they have the black colour available, in my size >_<"


Monday, June 16, 2008

Need Support

Buddies, now is the good time for your support :'(

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Flu Bug

It has been a week and I still haven't really recovered with this illness. Perhaps due to some other factors such as me sleeping even less.

Been ill is one.. hallucinating is another, I can't really think as good as I wanted to. Missing something is bad, hallucination, blur and missing something is even worst.


My life is moving to the stage I never quite wanted to reach yet. It is suffocating me. Have you ever woke up one day and realized that all your life have been wasted, and it was never the one you wanted.


It have been a long month. I couldn’t help to feel if anyone feel like I do, and I don’t know how.


Oppps... gotta go, have to pick up my life again!


Happy Fathers Day

It is Fathers Day, and as usual I did not spent the day with my father. He's enjoying himself over golf.

I did text him earlier, and he replied: "Thank you. We are playing golf at Sri Menanti. Have a nice weekend."

Yeah, have a nice weekend day. I knew I never said this, and never will to you, I am a bad son. Please forgive me. Happy Fathers Day. You are the best dad I can ever hope for.

Friday, June 13, 2008

Love Thought?

Recently, a movie I watched stated that you are in love in someone if you talk to them in your mind for at least 20 minutes a day.

I would like to ask you a question: “Do you do that after more you get married? Or after the couple honeymoon period passes?” I guess not.

Currently, I am talking to someone for nearly every hour of the day…..

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cause I just can’t shut up for too long :-P

Thursday, June 12, 2008

My New Credit Card

I applied a new gold card recently, and purposely stated my yearly income as $50000 per year which is of course bullock! And when it arrived......

WTF?!

Damnit... they still think I am a kid! A Tazzy card with ONLY $3000 limit?!

My other card limit is $3000... thats dinosaur ages ago!!!!!!!!!

I didn't ask for Tazzy T.T, my backside itch when people asked to apply in an expo... if I knew that is was a cartoon card... I die die also don't want.
Unless it's Godzilla of course

i like Tazzy.. but not in my card la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just imagine... you going for outing or dating... impressed someone... later pay by Tazzy card.... and people die laughing <_<